Tuesday, June 30, 2015

A Parenting Note: The First Few Weeks

Almost 6 weeks ago now (has it really been that long?!), we finally got to meet our son in person. 31 hours after my water broke, his tiny flailing body (complete with wide-open eyes and a crying mouth) was placed into my arms.

And it was SO worth every minute of pain, uncertainty, and downright deliriousness (primarily from a lack of sleep and food) for that one incredible moment.

The amazing moments with our son continue each day, too. From the first time he held up his head to the way he now follows me across the room with his eyes and turns his head to talk to me. What a precious, wonderful (AMAZING, AWESOME, ASTOUNDING, OUTSTANDING etc.) gift from Above.

If nothing else, please allow me to say that if you are married and able to have kids, you should. Period. There is nothing like it in this whole world.

Sure, my home is no longer spotless (if it ever really was) and my body may never be quite the same (kangaroo pouch, I'm looking at you!). Even as I started typing this post today, I noticed poop on my sleeve from this morning's diaper blow out.

Whatever! It's only a little poop...

These trivial frustrations dissolve when compared to the enormity of this tiny person's physical and spiritual care being placed in our charge.

Truly, a learning curve exists when it comes to having your first kid (nursing, diapers, schedules, etc.). But what has become more evident to me in the last week or so (as the initial fog has worn off) are the amazing spiritual pictures God paints for us through parenting.

As I have the time, I hope to share some of what He's shown me through my new role as a mom. For now, though, I hope you are all well and enjoying your summer. We are enjoying it here at The Shore.

Praise God from whom all blessings flow!
<3 Mrs. D.

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Living in the Real World

Elephant in the room: Yes, I've been gone a while. What started out as a time of reflection for me, to evaluate the point of my blog and its future direction, turned into a much longer hiatus than I had predicted.

To be honest, the long break has been nice. I have enjoyed living life in the real world. When you're blogging, it's so easy to allow your blog to become an obsession, to spend all your time focussing on what to post next, that you forget to focus on the life right in front of you. Life in the real world.

WARNING: This kind of tunnel vision can happen with any type of media, whether you are creating it or simply observing it.

I also felt blogging was pulling me away from baking, creating, writing, etc. for the right reasons. Was I trying to develop a new recipe because I was trying to please my husband or because I couldn't wait to post about it (hello, pride)? Was I writing something because God had laid it on my heart or because I felt pressured (by myself) to "get in another post"?

I don't want to be puffed up with pride, and I don't want to post things that are teeming with selfishness or other wrong motivators.

We need to be God-honoring in all that we do.

So, even though I have not fully decided where to go from here on The Shore, I wanted to say something about where I've been, mentally.

We are still waiting for little man to arrive... he should arrive this month. Pretty soon we'll be changing diapers, nursing, and everything else that newborns require.

We can barely contain our excitement over it all because it feels like we've been waiting so long to have a kid! I still can't believe how much God has blessed us in giving us this new life to shepherd and take care of.

He is so good.

I hope & pray you know that from your own life experience, that God is good even when things seem bad. God is good.

Love to you all,
~Mrs. D.

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

My Inadequacy

In March, Red Beard and I will be taking a birthing class to prepare for our son's arrival in a little over 2 months. For some reason, in the last several days, the timeline of events has hit me like a ton of bricks:

I feel so UN-prepared and IN-adequate for what lies ahead!! 

The thoughts that have crept into my mind include, but are not limited to:

  • We still need a baby dresser. 
  • We still have to find (and afford) a vehicle that all three of us can fit in.
  • I'm not good mother material.
  • How am I going to organize all our stuff in a 1 bedroom apartment?
  • I don't want to add to my kid's issues because of my own set of issues.
  • Can I really do this?

I like being prepared and organized. I like having the answers to my questions, the solutions to my problems. And right now, there are so many aspects of this "having a kid" thing that are un-answered, un-solved, un-prepared, and un-organized.

This morning, however, I found great comfort in God's Word. 

First, I read from Proverbs 24 (since today is the 24th):
"Through wisdom is a house builded; and by understanding it is established: And by knowledge shall the chambers be filled with all precious and pleasant riches." -Proverbs 24:3-4
Then, God, in His wisdom, reminded me of another passage:
"Except the LORD build the house, they labor in vain that build it: except the LORD keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain. It is vain for you to rise up early, to sit up late, to eat the bread of sorrows: for so he giveth his beloved sleep." -Psalms 127:1-2
Yes, we have needs and inadequacies. But if we could do it all on our own, why would we need God? Our needs, our inadequacies should point us to the strength and wisdom of our LORD. He has to be the one to do it, or else our homes will be built on vanity; they would be built on sand and not on the Solid Rock (cf. Matthew 7:24-27).

Do I have any idea how everything is going to get done before the baby arrives or how it will all be paid or provided for? Nope.

Do I have the answers to every parenting problem that will come about? Nope.

And you know what? That's okay. Yes, I can and will be searching God's Word for answers and will (hopefully) be remembering to pray for God's guidance. But I don't have to have all the answers right now.

Red Beard and I need to take this situation one day at a time, one step at a time, relying on God's wisdom to build our home.

What are you building your home on? Your own inadequacy or on the Lord? ~Mrs. D.